|She's my little lifesaver!|
Okay, let's just be blunt ... things have been NOT stellar lately. There's been some heartbreak, lying, betrayal and just recently a new found sense of relief. Clearly I did a big vanishing act and was silent. I've probably cried almost every day for the last few weeks. And now I am DONE! I see things clearly now and am not going to be made to look like a fool anymore. A GINORMOUS thanks to a very dear friend for her tough love yesterday! And funny enough, once this weight was lifted people started coming out of the woodwork saying how they, too, are relieved. Team R0nda has my back! It feels so good. It's like today was one big, constant hug from people that truly care and worried about me.
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You know how sometimes you are sitting there and you get an e-mail telling you to Hurry! A big race is about to sell out and of course you should do it? I know I am not the only one. This has roped me into quite a few races. The last e-mail I got was for the Portland Marathon. I did the half last year so I didn't really feel like I needed to repeat. Plus, I had thought Disney's Wine & Dine Half Marathon would be around that time, so I didn't think twice. But now they are telling me the full WILL sell out and I need to do it. Hm. Let's just say that it was implied that I wouldn't be able to do it. Game. On. So to cut to the chase ... today I registered. October 7th, 2012 you can find me in Portland, Oregon running my first marathon. And if you missed it earlier when I slipped it in, my second full marathon will be in Florida when I kick some ass in Goofy's Race and a Half Challenge! Don't you dare tell me I can't do something! Once the Portland Rock'n'Roll Half Marathon is over next weekend I'm pretty much throwing myself in serious training mode! So I'll probably be back writing more about my runs so I can help remember, track my progress and make note of my success (and mistakes). I'll be no doubt asking for advice all the time!
|Why so serious?|
And so yeah, Portland RnR is next weekend. It looks like for my first time ever I'll be racing with someone. Yes, I ran with Lesley, Abby and Team Jam - but we goofed off and had a freaking awesome time! But this time I want to RUN! I'm having so much improvement with every run. Last night I finished a 7 mile run at 10pm... best 7 mile run I've ever done! I only walked 4 times I think, and for a short amount of time, and ran most of the really long hill I picked out. I did have to find refuge at the YMCA though. For the first time in my 2.5 years of running I was seeking out a safe haven. Most houses looked dark and I pretty much hauled ass to the Y. It's not the best feeling to be the lone girl running when there are unsavory characters coming up behind you screaming foul language!
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|He makes my fruit fly heart flutter!|
Last night I got to celebrate the 1 year anniversary of meeting the man of my dreams ... then meeting his beautiful husband (that's my shout out to Alanis who has a new album coming out!). Sadly my darling bartender had the night off, so I had to drink my water alone in his honor. Oh the gossip - the gossip was dished, and crazy enough that is what helped me get this big weight off my shoulders! (Dirty little secret no more!) And best of all - I wasn't even there to participate in it. I was down the bar talking to a charming fellow instead. Yep. So things are turning around! I shed not a single tear today. I smiled all day instead! Halle-freaking-lujah!!
Oh - and I've lost 15 pounds now since February. Yep.