I'm still processing this run.
I was mentally ready. I was going to have a great run. The longest run before the half marathon. The weather was gorgeous. I stretched, grabbed my water and was out the door. It started to rain. I was pleased. I have good runs in the rain. But then it stopped raining and I stopped feeling capable of running. Basically, at 1.89 miles in I was texting Lesley in the middle of a mental breakdown. I was almost in tears. My legs would NOT work with me. Mostly it was my lower legs. I wasn't running fast. I was just trying to keep a nice steady pace, but I couldn't get it going. I felt like a complete failure instantly. I just wanted to run this without stopping unless I was refilling my water. I totally failed at that.
The good news is at about 3.6 miles I started to feel back to normal again. What a relief! I felt like I won the mental battle and was ready to redeem myself with the remaining miles, of which I had a lot. Today I did 4 laps through the park/duck pond/VA. The weather stayed gorgeous and everyone I met up with was really friendly. No kids taunting me. No feelings of questionable safety. I even saw a rent-a-cop at the VA area pull over to talk to some kids that seemed to be loitering. I saw them at the entrance ... and they weren't but a half mile further from there when I saw them again. The loop is about 2.6 miles or so. So I ran a lot while they made it nowhere. Seeing the uniformed guy pull over and talk to them was comforting to me actually.
So I did the full ELEVEN miles (YES!!!) in exactly 2 hours. I think my performance wasn't as good as the time makes it look, but I'm just going to brush it off. My mind was messing with me big time, but I did pull it together, so that's a good thing!
On my final lap I saw this at the duck pond and thought I'd snag a picture to share with you all! I just do a small internal loop because it feels safer and more open there ... the other parts are more wooded areas with no business or roads near by. Sounds nice, but there are have been more than a couple people attacked there, so I just stay clear!