To give anything less than your best is to sacrifice the gift.
-Steve Prefontaine
Make it simple, but significant.
- Don Draper

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

American Idol: iTunes Downloads


The show hasn't even really started and I have this to say .... WTF is up with Allison's "look" tonight?? I like that the theme is more open than past themes like Motown and country. Hopefully we can all find at least one song we like.

1. Anoop. (Usher) Maybe this will be a good night for Anoop? They loved him when he did Bobby Brown, so let's see. Two lines into and I'm not as hopeful that it will be good. Is the sound balance just f'd up again, or is it me? Not a good "singing" song. Feels choppy and too much background singers versus Anoop performing. I am underwhelmed. He doesn't sound horrible, it was just lifeless and boring for me. Not a fantastic start for tonight's show.

* I think I am going to have a facial. Is tonight 2 hours again? Ooh - only 90 minutes. The facial can happen post-show. The fact that I am writing about facials shows the judges are boring me.

2. Megan. (Bob Marley). Barf. She makes me want to barf. Her first "dance" moves totally looked horrible just like the older sister during the talent show at the end of Dirty Dancing! Oh gosh - this is painful. I despise her voice. Fakey Fake girl, Get off my tv and change this boring ass song! What the hell was that last thing she did with her voice on that last phrase? That was so freaking painful!

*Whoa? Irritating? FIRST time? Kara - she is ALWAYS irritating! Simon - well said - except WE never liked her. I can't believe that song is a "top download". Fans?? Does this chippy really have "fans"? Seriously?

3. Danny. (Rascal Flatts) I hope he doesn't irritate me. I cannot stand Rascal Flatts. They come on and I immediately change the station. And they might be too goody two-shoes for me -- which does seem to fit Danny I guess. I'm glad he just wore regular glasses tonight. I hate that this is a song I don't know or care to know. He's singing it good though. Actually, I bet he's singing it better than the nasally original version must sound. Didn't blow me away, but best of the 3 so we've heard.

* The middle girl holding the Danny sign? WOW. Um, no comment. But Wow. Poor girl.

4. Allison. (No Doubt) Ooh I LOVE this song. OSU freshman year!!! Her look - oh lord. Singing - started good! Her dress is one color away from being okay. Ditch the white and I might 1/2 find it okay, but really she looks so ridiculous. Totally ridiculous. And white shoes? Sick. WHAT? Did she forget the words? What was with the La la? Sure Gwen Stefanie does the La -- but should you really do that when there are people watching that don't know the lyrics and might think you forgot the words? Hell I know the song by heart and I'm still not fully convinced you didn't just space out at the end.

* So glad the judges called her out on the clothes.
* I am over her speaking voice. I want to give her a lozenge. The rasp is just too much now.

5. Scott. (Billy Joel) Bad notes at the start - in my opinion. This song, I hear Shrek singing it. Did they do that in one of those movies? His hair! Its so 80's! At least he is genuinely singing - versus yelling or whatever you call what that Megan girl does. Well, that was pleasant.

* Does Simon remind anyone else of my step-dad?
* The fact that they said Lil is doing Celine Dion - oh you KNOW I'm going to be all over that!!

6. Matt. (The Fray) I don't like the set up of him sitting right in between a bunch of robot girls. I like his voice better than the regular dude, but I feel like he's doing too much karaoke right now. He's doing vocal things he hasn't done in the past, and for me, it sounds like he's trying to sound like the lead singer of the Fray. I can't stand the Fray guy's voice.

* Whoa - Paula just said what I was trying say. That freaks me out!

7. Lil. (Celine Dion) Oh boy - what will she do???? I can't wait to hear! I want her to do MY Titanic song so I can rip it apart. Dammit, she isn't doing it. She probably knew she can't compete with me! Another "top download" that I don't know, although I don't listen to or like Celine unless its being performed by a drag queen. Really, you should all check out MY version of Celine. I AM the best! Okay bitch - STOP YELLING AT ME!! Singing does not equal yelling. Even her last note, to my poor ears, was just a yell.

* And yeah - her ass is HUGE!
* I'm happy we saved my favorites for last. Who will be next?? What will they sing??

1-866-IDOLS - 08

8. ADAM LAMBERT!! (Wild Cherry). Oh boy - my mom will hate it, won't she. I know it! She thinks he shrieks. Whatever! ;) I can't write when he's on. I turn into the swoony robot girl in the audience. He's making me smile and laugh. I feel rainbows oozing out of my tv. No straight guy would be that secure to just go out there and go for it and move like that! And honestly - he could tour as Jesus in Jesus Christ Superstar. He has THE perfect voice for it! I love his teeth. First person to thank the bank. Class act! Love him!!


9. Kris. (Bill Withers) Everybody is using an instrument tonight. I feel bad for people following Adam. I kind of don't dislike this song fully, but of all of them I'd pick something different, cuter, happier for Kris. And I wouldn't have picked that final note. I did enjoy him though. He is always delightful.


15 Minute Babble: Asian Homesickness

Last night I didn't sync my iPod. That means no fresh Adam Carolla podcast for me today. I made the mistake of putting on the Disney playlist. First up - Dinosaur. I thought it was just the pre-show ... you know the whole "it throws off the home signal and that's not good!" thing. I was wrong. It was the actual attraction .... "definitely NOT our dino!" Next came area music from Disney's Animal Kingdom. How many hours did I spend listening to that I wonder? Now I am homesick. I miss wandering around DAK with Brian looking at capybaras and people watching.

Jessica and I won't be back to Orlando for just under 7 months. That's a really long time. By then Brian will be based out of the Magic Kingdom instead, so no more goofing off in the Animal Kingdom together. Its like the end of an era. Time to start some new traditions I suppose.

Thursday, March 26, 2009

15 Minute Babble: the Beach

I think I want to take Lady to the beach. She's only been there once since I adopted her as my chubby little dog 4 years ago. She really loved our Mommy-Daughter day together. We went to my old lake, a lighthouse, the mall, had a lunch date together at some fishing docks, played on the beach, went hiking and explored some tide pools. We were lucky in that we made it to shore in time. Lady was so busy leading the way while she investigated every nook and cranny, we didn't even notice the tide was coming in and our path to the car was quickly disappearing. The little Lady Bug was exhausted and slept the entire way home. At her Grammy's house she was hysterical to watch. Her eyes couldn't open and she was actually dragging her body along the floor instead of getting up to walk. Good thing I don't mind carrying her to the car because she certainly had no energy to do it herself!

The point is, once the weather is a touch nicer, I think Lady and I will hit the beach again!

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

American Idol: Mowtown


Its back!! I'm so thrown off with Idol being on a day late, but at least its here! Not sure how I feel about Motown, but I'm game, let's go!

1. Matt. Let's Get It On. I can't stop looking at the mole on his forehead now that someone pointed it out to me last week. I enjoy this song. Remember last season when a dude dedicated it to his mom?? I would like him to take a week off from the piano .... never mind - he just stood up. I can't help but still feel like he wants to be Justin Timberlake. Well, that was a pleasant start to the show. My favorite performance by Matt so far this season!

* Randy's shirt ... "loud" would be an understatement.
* Kara has good hair tonight.
* Ah good, my man Simon is back in black!

2. Kris. How Sweet It Is .... This boy is a doll. I can root for him as long as he doesn't do better than my Adam. Okay Idol people - we need to fix the microphone feedback issues!! I can't help but picture American Pie when I hear this song. I just wanna stop, and let my hand catch up to my thoughts. Less Mraz this week, but still really fun to watch and listen to. God job, cutie patootie!

* I don't get why people rip on Kara. I think I like her. She kicks Paula's ass, that's for damn sure!

3. Scott. Can't Hurry Love. I am over him. I know it for sure now. Does his nasally tone remind anyone else of 80's George Michael or something similar? I feel like his music got peppy but his singing didn't join the tempo change. But hey - he has back up dancers. That's cool ... I guess?

* Holy canoli - check out Paula's ring! That's even bigger than my Titanic/Vegas ring. Wow!
* Simon - THANK YOU!! See? Simon and I DO share thoughts!! Obviously Simon Cowell is a smart man - for now.

4. Meagan. For Once In My Life. How long is this chick (notice the bird reference!) going to be on and continue to torture me?? What is with this hideous wooden necklace? I can't even discuss her singing. Her voice is unlike anything I've heard before - and unlike anything I want to hear again. Are those feathers in her hair? Oh no, is she going to make bird noises again? I want to say something nice here .... nice lipstick?

5. Anoop. Ooh Baby, Baby. Ugly jacket first off. His voice is nice tonight. Better than his Michael Jackson week performance! This song is boring though. Nothing is really "wowing" me, and, to talk like the judges, I find parts to be a bit "pitchy."

* I'm hungry. My multi-tasking and running around to keep up is exhausting. I mean I have to go a room and a half away to type this! Sheesh.

6. Michael. He always looks happy to be performing. I like that. Wow - his face is super animated. I don't know this song. He's doing a lot of that growling type thing that I don't really understand. I mean A LOT! And a lot of kicking his leg out. Didn't like the ending. Too long on a bad note and then overboard on the run. He does look nice though - that's the standard compliment when they don't sing well, right? Oh my - he's about to cry. Poor guy. :(

7. Lil. A "singing the phone book" comment before she even performs?? Notice she isn't hyped in the press anymore like she used to be? WOW - extension? weave? WOW. I saw her dress and thought Roaring 20s. I am sure she could be really good but she just yells. Imagine paying to see her in concert and hearing 90 minutes of this constant shouting. I'd be miserable. She's out of breath - well yeah - you just went crazing screaming the song!

* Paula is mental. This performance was not "fresh".


8. Adam Lambert! Finally! The moment we've all been waiting for is here!! Oh something slow? Fun! We all know I'll love it no matter what! And here we go ...I wonder how long it took to get his hair like that! This is so fun. Can't wait to hear how my mom will try to dis this! I miss the eyeliner though, Adam darling. Seriously - unbiased, of course - he is hitting his notes better than anyone else tonight! Zac Efron - his hair looks like Zac in Hairspray - or so I saw on ads for that movie. Adam is just so cute!! Fantastic, as always! And Simon has my back!! And yet another Adam Lambert song to add to my iTunes playlist!

EVERYBODY GET READY TO VOTE!!! Okay, fine. I know, I know, I'm probably the one one I know that actually votes anymore. But its Adam. And he was just amazing, how can you not vote??? Here's the number again ....


9. Danny. I guess I'll continue to blog, even though Adam is done. ;-) Moms and sentimental women are happy now. Very energetic tonight. Is it me, or is he on the verge of yelling like Lil did? It almost feels manic. If we could pass out some sedatives that would be swell.

10. Allison. She freaks me out. She just seems too "hard" for a 16 year old girl. Is this what 16 year old girls are like in 2009? I hate those 1/2 jackets. (Sorry to those of you that have them.) Good singer - I'm just going to pretend that she is 26 instead! Horrendous outfit overall though. Really.

*How much do I love that Simon just drew a mustache on Paula?

So, in conclusion, loyal readers, Adam Lambert Completes Me!


Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Need Electrical Help? Hire Me!

I have decided that since I am not given a choice about paying monthly dues to the Electrical Workers Union, I may as well embrace it. Forget accounting.... I am now an Electrician for Hire!

If you need some simple home repairs with your lights, or whatever it is that electricians do, drop me a line!

I shall use myself as a reference"
"R****is great! She is always so friendly when she works. If ever a light bulb goes out, she quickly replaces it with a pretty new bulb. . . except for the one in the refrigerator that she hasn't figured out how to replace yet!"

I am NOT an electrical worker

I fucking hate unions. Seriously. I am so anti-union, its a topic I won't even talk about normally. I've never seen the positive benefit of a stupid ass union. It seems to me that the union is only there to take your money (what damn benefit am I going to get from this??? NONE!). At Disney I watched the WORST employees ever continually show up every day; continually break rules; continually do things that should have gotten them fired. But no. They went running and crying like little immature babies to the union so they wouldn't lose their job. If you cared that much about your pathetic little job, then maybe, oh, I don't know .... JUST SHOW UP AND DO YOUR JOB! This one woman in particular, oh my gosh! She abused FMLA so much. Eventually she finally did get fired, and rightfully so. What did she do? Ran to the union to say she was fired for being a black woman. What the hell??? Okay - if you go to Central Florida just look around. She is NOT the minority! I lived in a complex where at a time I was the ONLY white girl I saw. So this huge company is being racist against little old YOU?? The one that can't show up to work and follow standard procedures? Good job, union. Way to go.
So now I am forced to join some stupid ass ELECTRICAL WORKERS union. The closest I get to electrical work is turning on my computer and my little desk heater. I would much rather donate the money the union would get to something more worthwhile, like the National Kidney Foundation or something. But instead I'm giving my money to nothing to do nothing for me. What a complete joke!

Monday, March 23, 2009

Because We Are Cool....

Here are things Jessica and I ARE doing this year, or have discussed doing, and may do sooner than later:

  • Enchanted Forest
  • Hang out with Seth Rogen and Steve Gonsalves
  • Karaoke
  • Walt Disney World
  • Kennedy Space Center
  • Halloween Horror Nights
  • Mickey's Not-So-Scary Halloween Party
  • Get drunk together for the first time ever
  • Las Vegas?
  • Huey Lewis and the freaking News!!! Hell yeah!!
  • San Francisco?
  • Piercings
  • Tattoos
  • Cocoa Beach
  • Make fun of Phil Collins
  • Talk about Jessica's butt
  • Be wiener faces
  • Send about 100 texts to each other per day
  • The County Fair
  • The International Food & Wine Festival
  • Rock Your Socks Off ..... So Hard

Saturday, March 21, 2009

Ring of Fire..... meow!!

Because I haven't posted about Adam Lambert in a few days......

I just watched a video of Johnny Cash singing the same song. It is confirmed ... Adam Lambert is definitely way more my type. At least Adam has flare and personality. The regular version was so boring I couldn't even finish listening to it.

Seriously - I don't see how you can not watch this and melt. He is so yummy!!

No-No, Stinky Fingers!!

Last weekend I discovered the joys of the dollar dvd rental inside the lobby at Fred Meyer. I finally got to see Pineapple Express and loved it, and also The Women! And for only $1 each and I didn't have to talk to a soul? Rad!

I went back on Friday after work to get some more movies - I had a free rental from them, so why not take them up on it? This time I picked out 27 Dresses and I Now Pronounce You Chuck And Larry. Holy cow the latter was so funny! I enjoyed 27 Dresses, also - but being a total faghag you can imagine I was partial to seeing to straight guys pretend to be married!

I hurried back to return those movies by 7pm and decided to see if there was anything striking my fancy for a Saturday night at home. I walked out with License to Wed and Alphabet Killer. The Alphabet Killer was supposed to be my scary movie. Yeah. That didn't happen. I put in the movie, popped some popcorn, poured a glass of delicious Diet Pepsi. Tinker had her spot on her couch, Lady was at my side waiting for handouts, and I pushed play.

I can't tell you much about this movie at all. It starred Eliza Dushku and Cary Elwes, or so the description told me. Apparently a prior renter was not aware that you DON'T MANHANDLE A DVD WITH YOUR STICKY FINGERS!! The gooey residue on the disc was so obvious, I probably could have taken a finger print on my own without all the fancy gadgets and gizmos they use on NCIS. It apparently runs for approximately 100 minutes. I went from beginning to end in maybe 30 minutes? No idea if it is a good, suspenseful movie or not. I have no idea who the killer was, or if we ever learned who the killer was.

Thanks a lot, Ms. Sticky Fingers. I really appreciate you helping me waste my dollar.

Friday, March 20, 2009

Rocking Out!

I think I want a rocking chair of some sort. That sounds really nice. Maybe I could make a porch, too. And have a banjo slowly playing in the distance while I sip on a Mint Julep - whatever that is. I wonder how much a little rocking chair would cost. I should look into this. I guess I already have an outside patio covered, and surprisingly I DO get to hear faint banjo music in the summer! (My neighbor is learning how to play, its so cute!)

So I guess now I just have to find my chair.

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Oh no! Writer's Block?

I find myself with 15 minutes a day where I don't really have much to do. Its not enough time to get actual work done, so instead I grab my notebook and write. The VPL public service message - written during this 15 minutes. The St. Patrick's Day clothing rant - written during this 15 minutes. So here I am in this 15 minute void and my mind is blank with no topics jumping out at me.

If any of you have ideas of things you'd like me to cover, feel free to leave it as a comment. You may leave it anonymously if you prefer, I won't mind! Thanks!

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Happy 10th Birthday Anandapur!

March 18, 1999 marked the opening of the Asia section of Disney's Animal Kingdom. It has since expanded, but at its start it was just the small, quaint village of Anandapur. Anandapur will always be home to me. I spent 2 years of my life there before migrating to the Labor Office. Watching gibbons mate and have babies; teaching 1000s of guests a week how to buckle a simple seat belt; counting in groups of 12; training really cool friends; training not so cool people; morning and evening ride-throughs; unplanned "in-show exits"; leading evacuation training; turntable games to help pass the time; checking out hot dads; BRUCE WILLIS; Trainer Taboo; 103; 105s!; parade duty; ERs; Trek Talk; sweeping the queue; checking for shoes; cranky guests; free pretzels; Mr. Panika's shop; CDS; Flights of Wonder; "party of 1 or less", Magic Moments; the "Heathers"; Best Friends! .... I could go on ..... but pictures would be more fun! But first, let me please say:

Namaste! Welcome to Kali Rapids Expeditions, the number 1 rafting company in Anadapur - where you WILL get wet and possible soaked!

R**** in training!

Tram training - for use during the construction of Everest.

Playing in the queue at the end of the night!

Ride throughs in the dark were rare - but tons of fun!!

The ladies love Kevin!

Parade duty - not as easy at one would think!

I stood out like a sore thumb!

Trek Talk! Happens every night!

Mengkha - my prettiest, sweetest trainee ever!

The cultural celebration was so much fun for everybody!

Even I got in on the kid action!

Thank you Anandapur! You helped me have the time of my life!!

Going Beyond the VPL

The Visible Panty Line. I am offended by it. In this day and age there is no excuse for a visible panty line. Spanks, thongs, au natural .... all viable options to spare me from having to see your ass X 2!

But I think there is something worse than the standard VPL - which is kind of just the outside of the undies that breaks your 2 cheeks into 4, thus give you double the disgusting ass. (See photo on the right). The more offensive visual is burned in my brain after a recent run in with it. It is that arch like seam across the back. I had done my own little drawing by hand, but upon a few searches I found the photo below to demonstrate the VPL arch!

If I can not only see your "standard" VPL, but also the VPL "arch" - that is TOO MUCH PANTY INFO!! Maybe some looser fitting pants/shorts would be more appropriate for your body? Maybe different undies? Anything - just please don't test my gag reflexes by showing me every stitch and seam of your undergarments! "UNDER" being the key word!

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

American Idol: Grand Ol' Opry


I am eagerly awaiting another round! My Idol boredom has vanished now that Adam Lambert has entered my life. I can't stand country music, but my internet browsing tells me Adam will rock my socks off tonight! Ryan can shut up now - lets see my boy!! Ooh - saw him! *swoons*

1. Michael Sarver. Ain't Going Down 'Til the Sun Comes Up. Too many words - he's losing his breath. He's just mediocre over all for me. I don't even know what the freaking words are. Nice one note song here ... I don't get why people pick songs with mostly one single note over and over. Honestly, he could have messed up the lyrics - would we even notice??

* Simon's review was 100% on point! I think Simon was listening to me! *

2. Alison Iraheta. (I am giving up on the titles!). I would love to hear her voice when she is 40. She already sounds older than me. Ugh. I'm with Simon .... country is PAINFUL! I can't even review this. She has too many hand motions to match her words. Oh good, its over. I have nothing to say. I'm just not a country fan!

* Oh f**k! I am so sick of the "You could sing the alphabet/phone book" nonsense. Get some new phrases, will ya? *
* Paula is way coherent compared to last year. I wonder if she feels competition to keep up with Kara? *

3. Kris Allen. He rocked before, hope he does again. Dude - Randy Travis is scary looking! Never heard this song either. So far I am enjoying this. Ballads and non-nasal non-twang are much more enjoyable for my ears. Ooh - echo-echo. Ha! I called that falsetto at the end. I KNEW he'd do it! Nice performance.

* Paula looks much better this week than last week. Simon's NOT in black. I like this kid; glad they are praising him. Oh gosh, is that a silver top on Kara? WTF is that?? *

4. Lil Rounds. I hate that country music just sounds like someone telling a boring story. Oh she does that thing with her ssss's. I don't know how to describe it. Almost an 'sh' sound to it. Go Lil. Yell at us. It wouldn't be you if you didn't scream at us. What? I can't hear you. Can you shout louder? I like her eye shadow tonight. Her dress? No. It wasn't horrible - I am not her fan - can you tell?

* I think Kara is pretty. I wish she'd switch tops. *
* I love Simon!! "Little" He is so rad! *
* I wonder if she's hiding anything in the opening cubby of that dress. *

YES!!!!! Adam's up next! Woo freaking hoo! And yeah - I actually "woo'd" loudly in my living room when they showed him. Ya got a problem with that?? He completes me.


5. ADAM LAMBERT. (Ring of Fire) Ooh - check out the chest. Out and proud! You rock my world!! I will just put it out there - I am not part of the world that fawns over Johnny Cash and thinks he is the best thing to happen to music ever... so I suspect I'll prefer Adam's version. Okay here we go! I can't write. I'm too busy swooning. YUMMY!!! Who knew Johnny Cash could sound so full of sexual innuendo. I love it! Meow!! Ooh Adam - going high - HOT! His pants are bitchin'. Adam is the BEST thing to ever be on Idol, in my opinion - which is the only opinion that matters in MY blog! He doesn't look insecure or amateurish at all like everybody else. I might actually go to the Idol concert this year so I can see him! This faghag is in love! Can't wait to download the mp3. Don't you just love his smile?? And he works the black eye shadow better than any other guy - sorry Johnny Depp. Simon - you are NOT listening to me right now! Women and twinks - we are LOVING Adam's performance tonight. I LOVE ADAM!


6. What? There's more? I saw what I came for. Okay - next. Scott MacIntyre. Yeah - I think I'm over him. does he only do ballads at the piano? His voice reminds me of the 80's. Good we picked up the tempo a bit. I wish I could play and sing at the same time. My singing/playing simultaneously is limited to the Hokey Pokey and one Fiona Apple song. He made a funny. Cute.

* Simon is in a mood tonight! *
* The confrontation is making me uncomfortable. I have to tune out. *
* I'm bored. I'm calling my mommy. *

7. Alexis Grace. Didn't somebody do this song last year? This girl is t.i.n.y.! I want somebody to sing 9 to 5. I LOVE 9 to 5. My feet are cold. The Cranberries! Her hair, tiny body, (appearance of a) big head - she looks like the lead singer of the Cranberries! Nice teeth. I'm sorry - I think I just started judging a pageant. I think she never caught my attention with this song. I like her lipstick a lot.

*To address my first comment .... I am NOT Fox News - I do not PRETEND to be fair and balanced. MY name is at the top of the blog page ... therefore I shall force you all to endure hearing me continually praise the very pretty Adam Lambert. So there, mommie dearest!*

8. Danny Gokey. He has a big supply of glasses. My little girl friend thinks he resembles Robert Downey Jr. Too bad he didn't sing Before He Cheats - that would have made me giggle. Ew - his jacket collar is popped?? No. Stupid fashion choice tonight. Singing is good - same quality I'd expect from Danny. Everyone will praise him. Moms will love him. I like that he seems like a really nice guy.

* Paula's boobs are so in our face tonight. *
* SIMON!! Thank you for addressing his bad clothes!! *

9. Anoop Desai. I like the hoodie under the jacket - a look I end up wearing a lot in the winter. He has the echo effect too! Much better than last week and I'd rather hear his voice than Willie Nelson's any day! Now's he's going for it! The slow build up was nice, but its like once he went for the big crescendo it stopped too soon. Odd.

* Some things, in my humble opinion, are overrated: this song - You Are Always on My Mind, Willie Nelson, Johnny Cash, Stevie Wonder, Mary J. Blige, Fantasia Barino (to throw in some Idol people). .... I don't get all the over the top praise for these things. *

10. Meagan Joy. Vote her off please. I wonder what animal noise we'll get to hear this week. They should strap her down so the wannabe can't wiggle weirdly. I can't stand a single thing about her voice. Oh lord - those 2 night notes?? What the hell?? sounded horrid. This was retarded. Patsy Cline I like. Hell I'd rather hear Denise Russell (a drag queen) up there singing instead. I want to something nice about her .... um .... her hair is pretty tonight.


11. Matt Giraud. I am liking him more this week than last week. Bad last note. I don't really have anything to say. Overall this one was enjoyable.


Affirmation - by Savage Garden

I used to listen to this song daily. I had the lyrics up on my wall in college and would read them while getting dressed in the morning. I think the message is just fantastic!!

I believe the sun should never set upon an argument
I believe we place our happiness in other people's hands
I believe that junk food tastes so good because it's bad for you
I believe your parents did the best job they knew how to do
I believe that beauty magazines promote low self esteem
I believe I'm loved when I'm completely by myself alone

I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love 'til you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye

I believe you can't control or choose your sexuality
I believe that trust is more important than monogamy
I believe your most attractive features are your heart and soul
I believe that family is worth more than money or gold
I believe the struggle for financial freedom is unfair
I believe the only ones who disagree are millionaires

I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love 'til you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye

I believe forgiveness is the key to your own happiness
I believe that wedded bliss negates the need to be undressed
I believe that God does not endorse tv evangelists
I believe in love surviving death into eternity

I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love 'til you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye(Repeat 2)
Until you say goodbye
Oh no no no no no ( Repeats itself many times fading)

Is This Irish Fashion Sense?

I was sitting at work trying to decide why I felt kind of grumpy. I realized it was because of Saint Patrick's Day. The holiday doesn't bug me. I am indifferent on it. I'm not Irish. I'm not a beer drinking. I'm just a German girl that likes my Rumplemintz schnapps. What I realize has been bothering me is the fashion.

What is it about this day that brings out the worst clothes? It is the day when grade school teachers show up practically looking like a freaking four leaf clover. Unless I am in Vegas at the Fitzgerald, I don't really need to see four leaf clovers on clothing. By 9am I had already seen this absolutely horrible green on green thrown together "pant suit". Green denim jacket with green pants of a totally different shade. When did this monstrosity become acceptable?

I feel like I am stick in some 80's time warp right now. Some of these garments shouldn't have even been made int eh first place. Today's clothing rivals that of the things one would wear as a joke to the ugly holiday sweater party - yet I see the people in these disasters walking around thinking they look legitimately good.

Red heads, like Marcia Cross on Desperate Housewives, seem to wear a lot of green. I don't have red hair. I don't own any green clothes. I don't see why or how it would even fit into my closet and not look stupid and unwelcome... especially if it had warn out clovers stitched on it.

I am so ready for March 18 - where I plan to discuss something that is a year 'round disgrace .... the Visible Panty Line.

Monday, March 16, 2009

My Online Reality

Often I am given a strange look when people hear that some of my closest friends are people I initially met online before meeting in person. Thanks to sites like myspace and Facebook, I have been able to reconnect with friends as close as across the street and as far Indonesia. But I have also made brand friends. Meet a few screen-names that turned into real life friends!

* Amy (Key'Lolo). In 2006 she messaged me on myspace to see if we used to go to church together. We didn't, but as it turns out we lived just down the street from each other. After nearly a year of talking online we met in person when I picked her up on the way to a party. We hit it off instantly - and quite a few crazy nights together!

* "Pirate" Bob. I don't even know what one thing it was that brought Bob and I together. I just always knew he was cool. He intrigued me. He came across as this really nice, almost shy guy - but I knew that there was a dirty, wilder side to him. You didn't disappoint me, Bob! On my 29th birthday I had the pleasure of Bob literally sweeping me off my feet, when I tackled him for a hug, before we went cruising around Phoenix in his bitchin' mini-van. He helped me have a rad birthday, and I suspect we'll meet again. Any straight guy that will drive me around and join me in 4 gay bars in one night - he's a keeper!

* "HHN" Brian. We met on myspace in 2005. I knew right away he was way cool. His page could have been my profile page - we had that many shared favorites. I mean really, who else do I know that loves Robbie Williams? That Fall we met up at the Magic Kingdom. Since then we have hung out every year during my Disney vacations. We have had some crazy, insane fun together! Parliament House was a BLAST!! And sign language is just not as much fun with anyone other than Brian! This year will be our 5th round of silliness and Long Island Iced Teas together!

* "Little" Brian. Our online relationship was pretty short before meeting. A couple of yahoo chats here and there; myspace comments now and then. All that changed last October. I instantly adored the little hottie when we met on OUR 10-day Disney World vacation together. He is such a doll. He could always make me smile, even when I was feeling miserable and sick. I had so much fun wandering around tipsy, singing Katy Perry songs with him. So cute, I want to carry him around in my purse with me. Brian - some day we HAVE to hang out again!!

* Deb - The Old Broad. Where do I start?? A friend suggested we be myspace friends. We knew all the same people and lived in the same town, but had never actually met. Finally, after knowing each other inside and out, we got to meet just about this time last year. Since then we've hung out quite a few times - always so much fun, she is a riot!! We been there for each other during our highs and lows, always ready for support for the one who needs it. I expect to see much more of her come football season. Go Beavs!!

* Greg, aka my little Greggy-pants, aka SNJ. So adorable and he doesn't even know it! Greg and I became friends in 2007. We'd talk until late into the night, text during the day, even have 3 way phone calls with our 3rd Musketeer. He was just such a cutie pie. It hit me - we need to go on vacation together! The same time I met Little Brian was the same time I finally got to meet my little Greggy in person. So much fun! Our first night together we got stuck on the Haunted Mansion. The two of us had a blast conducting a very 'serious' interview and sharing some "water". Mmm, it was yummy! I am so glad we got to finally meet. He is really a great person with such a great heart. I just love listening to Greg laugh - its almost contagious!

* Ronnie. (TiredOldSpook). Dude. How long have I known you anyway? I want to say maybe 2005? I think you're my first internet friend made, but not the first one met. .... I first saw his screen name appear ages ago on Halloween Horror Nights discussion boards. It wasn't until I saw him on myspace and I messaged him about recognizing him that we became friends. He loves cheese. And Butch Patrick. I think he and Bob are being BFFs behind my back. In 2007 I had the pleasure of hanging with Ronnie at Jellyrolls in Orlando. What a sport - putting up with me and my friends! We had a pretty quick meeting up at Halloween Horror Nights last year, but he kind of swooped in and out like a whirlwind. By the time I realized he was there, he was gone!

* Shannon. I want to write more about you - (that's just my way of saying LET'S HANG OUT!!!) Shannon was Heather's friend, and somehow she just became mine, too. We both love Justin Timberlake. And have about 1000 other things the same, too! She helps me shop for MAC make-up. Thank goodness for texting!! I am so happy to say that finally, after who knows how long, we met!! AND ... it was at the MAC counter - naturally! That was, oh, less than a month ago! We shared tequila that night, and instantly became fast friends while experiencing one of those nights where "what happened at the party stayed at the party". Shannon is so freaking cool! I'm happy we're friends. Okay - so whatever, Shannon - move in! Time to be roomies. Your kids and husband won't care. ;-)

* Jessica. She completes me. Is that gay to say? Whatever - she is way cooler than any little paragraph could ever describe. I want to say we met in 2006 on myspace. A friend said, "R****, you HAVE to add this girl. You'll love her!" I looked at her profile page and knew my friend was right! She had anti-Phil Collins statements AND Buffalo Bill on her profile page. She was rad!! Of course I added her and we became really good friends. We live 2 hours apart, so meeting up would take work. We decided, last year, to meet in person, at Oregon's own Enchanted Forest. Such a perfect place for the two of us! Since then I've been up to visit her quite a few times. Her cat Porter is so handsome, if I do say so myself. Hannibal, the hamster, well, he's not so social yet, but I'll give him some time. This year we are getting some, mmm, artistic? work done to our bodies together. I can't wait! And of course Enchanted Forest is going to see us again. But even more exciting is our vacation. I am so excited to be able to show Jessica the place I called home for 3 years when we go on a 10 day vacation to Walt Disney World together. I know it will be so much fun - with Jessica, everything is fun! I think hardly a day goes by that we don't text. I find it super easy to tell her things that I can't tell anybody else. When I need advice, she's part of the "Circle of Trust" that gets to hear the inside scoop. I am so happy we met online and in person, and I can't wait to see her again!!

* Mike. (club33az). He is last, and that's because he is NOT the least. He is the yang to my yin. He is my number one gay; I am his hag and biggest fan. I cannot imagine life without Mike. When I'm sad, he's there to cheer me up, or tell me I'm being a baby! We have complete honesty with each other - something I'm learning is very rare in this day and age. Oh gosh, I didn't even start at the beginning. Let's see... our friendship started in 2006. I would read his posts on discussion boards and think how he seemed so level headed and cool. He posted that he would be away in Chicago for a few days - I used that opportunity to send him the first of many of our "private messages" to tell him I'd miss his posts while he was away. From then on we became fast friends. Oh my, the things Mike knows that NOBODY else ever gets to hear! We got along so great online, and sealed the deal in person in 2007 when he picked me up at the airport in Phoenix, Arizona. I suppose I should have been nervous about meeting a stranger at the airport, but when we met it just felt like seeing an old friend. I can't even write this now without smiling while thinking about him. He, with Bob, helped show me the Phoenix nightlife and gave me a birthday to remember forever! I never imagined I'd turn 29 in the parking lot of a gay leather bar. I love that bar. In January 2008 we got to see each other again when I went to visit and stay the weekend with him and Clark. I had my own room and everything! I love staying at their house. Cuddling up on their couch with a milkshake and the Godfather and Family Guy, what beats that?? Maybe horseback riding in the desert? Oh yeah, we did that, too! But it doesn't end there .... Mike was the 4th person, the glue to our group, on our trip to Walt Disney World. I swear we both almost peed from excitement when we met up at the Orlando airport! Many nights of sharing a bed, and he never made a move? What the hell?? Ha ha - just kidding! I'm not sure how I was able to say good bye at the end without bursting out into even more uncontrollable sobbing, but I am the girl - I had to be the strong one between the two of us. Mike is amazing. Our friendship is one to be envied!

Saturday, March 14, 2009

He Loves Us All.

I've been re-watching Queer as Folk every night while going to bed. I just saw this scene where the message reminds me of my prior blog, and standing up for equality. In season 1 Emmett makes a deal with God. To keep up his end of the bargain, he joins a support group called "See the Light". Comprised of homosexual men and women, they all seem to be brainwashed into thinking that living life as a heterosexual is the better, more righteous option. Michael and Ted pay a visit to Emmett, to let them know they still love him. This excerpt really jumped out at me:

Michael: .... that's the way I'll always remember you.

Emmett: Thanks. I don't think God appreciates it quite as much as you do.

Ted: I think God appreciates it even more, 'cause he created you in His image, at least that's what I was always taught. And since God is love and God doesn't make mistakes, then you must be exactly the way he wants you to be. The way he intended you to be. And that goes for every person, every planet, every mountain, every grain of sand, of every song, every tear. And every faggot. We're all his, Emmett. He loves us all.

A Personal Transformation

May 21, 1992. I was 13 years old and in the 8th grade. That night the original Real World debuted on MTV. For many season I never missed a single episode. Back then it was more "real" than it is these days. I was at the age where I was developing my own opinions, discovering new things, seeing the more harsh aspects of our world, making my first efforts and discovering who "R****" was. (They were big on that on the Real World ... "you don't KNOW yourself." blah blah blah). I think being a very dedicated fan of the Real World at that time of my life was actually a good thing. Before it was all about sex and drinking they dealt with real issues of race, abortion, homosexuality, struggling to start a career, violence, AIDS, and much more.

I started realizing almost immediately upon entering junior high in 1990 that I wasn't sharing the same opinions as my classmates. The Oregon Citizens Alliance was all about hate (in my eyes). They were going after everyone that didn't fit their ideals. One of their targets were the gay citizens of Oregon. I remember being at my locker and hearing the boy next to me say how gay people are disgusting and should be killed. Obviously it really bothered me if I am remembering it nearly 20 years later. Because I wasn't popular and still trying to figure out this whole junior high thing, I didn't say anything. I stared in my locker in complete shock and disgust. My parents never talked to me about not being a bigot. I guess they just demonstrated through their actions that hate is not a good thing. I actually remember being in grade school, watching a James Bond movie in a hotel room on the coast, and I said "I hate that man" - about the villain. My dad said to me "you shouldn't say 'hate'. That means you want that person dead." To this day I very much reserve that word for only very extreme instances. Just because someone is different than me doesn't mean I should hate them or want them dead -- like this classmate said of gays and lesbians.

Pedro Zamora is the most important person to ever be on the Real World. He was able to put a friendly, albeit attractive, face to homosexuality and AIDS. He taught my generation that you can be "a person living with AIDS." He taught us about safe sex. He showed integrity. He stood up to the bullies. He died on November 11, 1994. The night before I had just watched the final episode of his season of the Real World. When I heard of his death that day it almost felt like losing a friend. Someone that I actually knew and had learned from. I was a junior in high school and had just turned 16. (A year later I would be stuck listening to classmates in our health class laughing at the fact that he died. I was too sad to even tell them to stop.)

It was then that I was really getting my own opinions, but was easily intimidated by people. I got my license and was slowly becoming more independent. But I still was too shy to speak my mind on issues that I felt were important. I realize now that I was surrounded by negative people. People that put me down to boost their own self-esteem. People that didn't know how to be happy, and therefore couldn't just let me be a happy person. I felt shoved into stereotypes that I didn't feel I belonged in. I was the 'band geek' - yet nobody even cared to notice that I actually didn't enjoy being in band. I was in it because I was good at it and wanted to be a professional musician. To this day I still have nightmares about being in that smelly band room. Classmates not in band would hardly give me a chance. Now I don't care though. If they were that shallow to not even find me worthy of a hello, then they weren't cool enough to be my friends anyway.

In college I experienced first hand the racism that existed in people. Freshman year my friends weren't white. I came back to my dorm room multiple times to find horrible things written on my door about my friends. And the girls that did this didn't even care that those people they were insulting ... lived on our floor!! Why you would pick a fight with the football team, I'll never know! Yet I still didn't say anything. I just erased the messages and let these girls continually put me down.

It wasn't until sophomore year in 1997 when I went to work in Florida that I started finding courage to say more. I was still super quiet about things. During WWIII in our apartment, I just stayed locked in my room. But I was seeing other people interact. I was seeing how people handle issues. I was exposed to people from all over the world. I finally got to see more than just Roseburg High School.

I went back to college, changed majors, got new friends, and life started to change and get better. I finally found people that were accepting of my views on things. I watched a friendship come to an end. It was a good thing. This girl I had been friends with for so long wasn't a TRUE friend. I was her friend when it was convenient for her. She dumped me to the side when "something better" would come along. She'd make comments to put me down on my appearance, my interests, my school work... everything. I couldn't take it anymore and finally found courage to just stop being her friend. I was scared to end the friendship because she really was a mean girl. When things didn't go her way I saw the meanness come out. I was scared I would lose all of my friends by ending this bad friendship. But I found courage to do it --- and I got to keep those important friends that mattered.

From that point (in 1999) to now, I've become a much stronger person. I've had people come and go, and I always learn something - even from the bad things. The bad things have only made me stronger and learn to stand up for myself. I feel like if my friends from high school and early college met the R**** that exists in 2009, well, I like to think they'd be pleasantly surprised and how she's changed.

I've finally found confidence. I'm not as shy now. If I want something, I don't always just sit and wait for it to not happen. I speak my mind when the time is right. If 2009 R**** was at that Fremont locker listening to the guy wish death upon gays, well, she would probably have a very eloquent speech flow out of her mouth and put him in his homophobic place. Now when friendships are negative, R**** doesn't let them continue. If you tell her she is too fat, if you insult her friends, if you make her feel bad when you should be creative positive things, '09 R**** has no problem setting you free .... and she'll do it with a smile.

I'm not afraid to stand up for and defend my friends now. I won't sit back and hear people make remarks like I used to. I am no longer a door mat. And I am a much happier person for it!

Last House on the Left -- it was a doozie!

MPAA Rating: R for sadistic brutal violence including a rape and disturbing images, language, nudity and some drug use.

"Excessive and gory, this remake lacks the intellectual punch of the 1972 original." -- Rotten Tomatoes

"...wallows in sick sadism while missing the point completely." -- E! online

"...desperate-to-be-shocking exploitation dud." -- Entertainment Weekly

“The Last House on the Left is a study of operatic vengeance and dueling family values." -- New York Times

"It is unapologetically violent, to the point where those who are upset by screen brutality will have a tough time sitting through it." -- Reelviews

Here's a good description/review:

On one hand, The Last House on the Left is a film involving such brutal violence and degradation that it made this viewer, and a few others we polled, physically sick. Some of the images are truly horrifying, and the content is generally disgusting and often unwatchable. It is a disturbing movie, which would seem to be the point. In moral terms, the film rates zero stars out of five.

On the other hand, in film terms, it must be said that The Last House on the Left is really well done, with impressive performances, masterful creation of dread and tension, perfect pacing, intense storytelling, haunting cinematography, truly sickening sound effects, and all that. The cast has several surprises, including Sara Paxton and Martha MacIsaac as the tortured teens and Tony Goldwyn as the dad; the bad guys, played by Garret Dillahunt, Aaron Paul and Riki Lindhome are wonderfully calm, cold and menacing.

Was it a terrible movie? No. Not at all. I was glued to it the whole time. I essentially knew the way it would end, having seen the original a few times back in the early 90s. I like Tony Goldwyn, so I enjoyed watching him in a movie again. (And I confess I started having flashbacks of him in Kuffs - a happy feel good comedy!) Plus it had a girl from Superbad it in, and I love that movie, so it was cool to see her again.

But I will admit this is probably the first time I have ever actually covered my face because it was too violent to watch. I never watch when animals are being hurt in movies, but people violence never bothered me. Well here it is, the first time in 30 years that I was shocked by what I was seeing. My face actually started to hurt from cringing so much.

Like my mom said about the original -- it is a scary movie. Not Freddy Krueger scary, but more 'holy cow this could be real' scary. I'll just say Watch with Caution!

But I did have a fun night!
And now I will install extra locks on all doors and windows and maybe never leave my house again. Certainly no more ever speaking to strangers!

Thursday, March 12, 2009

Adam Lambert Completes Me

I've been spending my evening watching Adam Lambert videos on youtube.

He is such a doll. A guy that can pull off the eyeliner .... that's my kinda guy!

My mom is not a fan of his. Does she not have eyes???? He's so pretty to look at. I've been gazing all night - haven't gotten bored yet!
I think he should date my friend "little" Brian. But then maybe they'd be too much alike? Not sure on that one yet.
Sadly, since he is my American Idol favorite, he will get the boot at some unexpected time. Or he'll get to the finals and lose to that obnoxious Lil Rounds. My favorites never fare well - only David Cook has so far.
But I will enjoy watching and listening while he sticks around. And when that ends, there's a slew of youtube videos to keep me entertained!

Excuse me now ... I must resume my mini-concert!

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

American Idol - Michael Jackson


Okay - apparently I could have continued washing dishes. What a long, strange intro to tonight. Let's just get started! My thoughts with Michael Jackson - tonight could either suck or kick ass. I love Michael, so I hope it doesn't suck.

1 - Lil Rounds. (The Way You Make Me Feel) Obviously the Idol execs want her to win so I'm already over her. I HATE her outfit. Ugly and unflattering. Honestly, not impressed so far. I hate being yelled at. Damn - her ass rivals that of Serena and Venus Williams. So not bad, but certainly didn't blow me away like Randy Jackson WANTS me to think she did.

2 - Scott MacIntyre. (Keep The Faith) Do I even know this song? His voice reminds me of someone but I can't place it. I wonder if he knows his hair looks like Art Garfunkel's. Boring song. I wanted him to do good, but maybe he needed a better song. This one isn't working for me.

* I want the group to sing and do the Thriller dance tomorrow night. *

3 - Danny Gokey. He's going to be awesome. (PTY) Ooh RAD song choice!! I love the colors he's wearing tonight. Hot! And his glasses match, too! Paul and I are dancing together. Whoa - is that sweat on his back??? I hope its a design on the jacket instead. Favorite performance so far.

* Paula looks horrible. Seriously. Yo - crack is whack. *

4 - Michael Sarver. (You Are Not Alone). He has nice teeth. I'm kind of indifferent. I don't think I like his voice. It sounds strained or like he is singing from the back of his mouth/throat/nose area. Blah. Whatever. Next.....

* My mom is wondering if Paula had eye work done. I will have to check next time she is on. *

5 - Jasmine Murray. (I'll Be There). I love her hair tonight. Wow HUGE ring. Huge earrings. I think my mom had that dress in junior high. I guess I have nothing to say about her performance. Kinda boring but okay. Oh please Randy - more name dropping??? Lame.

6 - Kris Allen. (Remember the Time) Immediately has a Jason Mraz feel to it. I am a HUGE Mraz fan and I always liked this song - so kudos from me! I do not remember this guy. OH - he is the Man in the Mirror dude. Okay - I liked him! If the judges don't mention Jason Mraz I'll be shocked. Seems like a nice guy.

* Paula looks run over. Feathers? She looks like she's been up partying for days and about to crash. *
* HA!! RANDY BROUGHT UP MRAZ!!! I should totally be on judge on here, I swear!! *

7 - Allison jkljksdljfklsjdf. Her home videos remind me of Selena. (Give It To Me) My Selena similarities have vanished. Had a hint of Pink to her voice at the start. WTF is with the MJ songs that I don't know? Is she trying too hard to be rough sounding? I'm so bored already. Not my thing. I prefer styles like Chris Allen's. This girl is like Miley - sounds like she lives in a bar. Gross.

8 - Anoop Desai. He's always been so humble. I like that. (Beat It) Can't wait! OMG Member's Only!! He's like the dorky kid that thinks he's a gangsta - love that. The was fun to watch. Not really a vocal showcase type of song, but enjoyable to sit back and watch. He's had so much hype, so my guess is he'll stay around another week.

9 - Jorge Nunez. Thank goodness its NOT Tatiana del Toro. (Never Can Say Good Bye) Dammit. Sing songs I know! I can never stop looking at his eyebrows. He reminds me of the mid-90s. Never mind, I know the song - blah. He's almost too nice for me, if "nice" is the right word.

* Every time Paul talks she sounds like she's going to cry. *
* Simon always rubs his face with his middle finger. Why does he do this, Dr. Freud? *

10 - Megan Corkrey. (Rockin Robin) What a STUPID ass song choice! Is she going to try to be Amy Winehouse again? Ok. Its official. Something about her makes me really dislike her. Seems like a total wannabe of some sort. What. The. Hell. Did she just make bird noises?? I call fake! She is trying too hard to be quirky that it all seems like an act.

11 - Adam Lambert. Ok - C.U.T.E. I hope he likes guys. He is just a doll. Don't disappoint me!! (Black or White) Rad song. LOVE the walk out. He added blue to his hair! I have to be sure to vote. My mom doesn't like him. I know what it is - his confidence and stage presence. He's got it! Fine - I love the hair and eyes, too. He just might complete me. Move over Constantine Maroulis - I have a new Idol man!

* Oh, he's going to cry! So sweet!! I heart Adam!! *
* Excellent teeth he has! *
* Oh mother, just allow me to gush!

12 - Matt Giraud. (Hidden Nature) Ok. Dude. You work in a freaking dueling pianos bar and THIS is what you come up with? Sometimes I think he wants to be Justin Timberlake, except Justin is actually good looking and way talented. Oh man. I am cringing. I did NOT enjoy those "pitchy" falsetto notes at the end, as the judges like to say.

* Randy brought up JT. Randy wants to be me. *
* Paula is high. It was NOT that great. *

13 - Alexis Grace. (Dirty Diana) I can't understand what she's saying. Is she wearing clothes? Oh - is it a onesie? The white girl is yelling at me. Shut up, bitch. Thank goodness this one is over.

* Time to vote for Adam now. Please, my world-wide fans and readers, don't flood my phone lines tonight. I am all about Adam! Meow!! *


RHS Class of '96

1. Did you date someone from your school?
For a time.

2. Did you marry someone from your high school?

3. Did you car pool to school?
Drove my own car - Veronica

4. What kind of car did you have?
White Honda Civic. She was a cutie.

5. What kind of car do you have now?
Chevy Cobalt

6. It's Friday night...where are you? (then)
Football or basketball game

7. It is Friday night...where are you? (now)
Relaxing at home or hanging out with Lori after work

8. What kind of job did you have in high school?
Office girl at an accounting firm

9. What kind of job do you do now?

10. Were you a party animal?
Not a WILD party animal, but I threw a few parties - scavenger hunt, toga, costume, they were awesome.

11. Were you considered a flirt?
I don't think so? I have no idea.

12. Were you in band, orchestra, or choir?
Was in marching band and regular band, oh and the pep band sophomore year

13. Were you a nerd?
No. I just kind of floated around with different cliques.

14. Did you get suspended or expelled?
Of course not.

15. Can you sing the fight song?
Bits of it -- not as great as Heather can, but then she was a cheerleader. I can still play the fight song by memory though. I am sure that will just always stick with me, much like walking in time with the appropriate foot going forward first.

16. Who was/were your favorite teacher?
Mrs. Leach (business) and Mrs. McGlone (reading/writing)

17. Where did you sit during lunch?
Usually in my car.

18. What was your school's full name?
Roseburg Senior High School

19. When did you graduate?

20. What was your school mascot?

21. If you could go back and do it again, would you?
Hell no!! I was so happy when it ended. Or if I did it again, I would just do it totally different. And I would have tried even harder to change the fate of one dear friend.

22. Did you have fun at Prom?
What's that? Oh, that's the thing that happened in the old JC Penny's building while I was ice skating in a different city. Right okay. Next question.

23. Do you still talk to the person you went to Prom with?
Enough with the prom questions! Maybe I shouldn't have dumped my date, so then I would have gone and I could answer. No - I don't talk to originally planned date. He's too busy going in and out of jail.

24. Are you planning on going to your next reunion?
Ugh - I'm still recovering from the 10 year. I imagine Heather R** and I will crash our own reunion though.

25. Do you still talk to people from school?
Yep! Gotta love facebook for helping me find old friends again!

I Don't Get The Appeal ....

of Stevie Nicks.

I hear her voice and am instantly mad.

In 1997 they would play Fleetwood Mac all the time on WMMO. They would play WMMO non-stop in the tunnels the Magic Kingdom. Nothing like having to go to work and hear Stevie Nicks at the start of your day. It was just terrible.

Seriously. I just don't get it.

As Nancy Kerrigan would say, "WHY??"

Monday, March 9, 2009


I have been in a fantastic mood for weeks now!
Its fabulous!

And I think its only going to get better!!

Sunday, March 8, 2009

Psych 101

I am a big fan of Freud. I love Psychology. I had been a business major for nearly 3 years before I took Psych 101 and immediately switched majors. I occasionally read articles from Psychology Today online just for fun. I love it when other people share my interest in it and especially love it when people understand my wanting to figure out statistics with control groups, placebos, yada yada yada ..... So I figured why not babble on about psychology tonight!

Tonight's topic .... the Oedipus and Electra Complexes.

I think most people are familiar with the phrase Oedipus complex, but perhaps aren't as familiar with Electra complex. Carl Jung created the phrase "Electra" complex as the female version of Freud's Oedipus complex. So basically it is a phrase for those women with the daddy issues.

The Oedipus complex is far more common in conversation than Electra, but I imagine both are equally interesting. I decided NOT to refer to old psych text books tonight, for fear of getting too involved. Instead I just thought I'd point out how entertaining the Oedipus complex can be. Sure we've all referred to it at some point, haven't we? Well, okay, those of us that have had any schooling should just know about it off the top of our heads.

To quote something said on the Wikipedia page about Freud's theory: "In classical theory, individuals who are fixated at the oedipal level are 'mother-fixated' or 'father-fixated', and reveal this by choosing sexual partners who are discernible surrogates for their parent(s)."

I, no offense to you, dad ;-) have made sure to NOT fall under this category - as seen in my SWF ad where I didn't want anyone with my dad's name. I would not consider myself "father-fixated" at all. If we did a photo layout of males from my past, there pretty much are no resemblances to my father. Do I really want to date anyone that, (if in their looking like my father), looks at all like me?

I can't help but find it funny when I see a male (since we are discussing Oedipus tonight) that dates someone that looks so much like his own mother that you wonder is the mother hers or his? Talk about mommy issues! If his girlfriend looks like her so much, is that because he is fixated on mommy and needs a sexual partner that resembles her since he can't physicially be with his mother, although that's what his subconcious is telling him he wants?

If It Is Even Possible....

...There may be even more blogs on the way. I've found myself ready and wanting to write all the time lately. So, in an effort to help me get out all the things floating around in my head, yesterday I picked up a notebook solely for those blog worthy thoughts that hit me when I am not at a computer.

Brace yourselves. Who knows what will come out of these fingers next!

Saturday, March 7, 2009

Panthers, Generals & Indians

I spent the day in a room with tacky poster board decorations. On the posters were photos and magazine cut-outs to showcase what happened throughout the last 34 years. SNL, the space shuttle Columbia, spotted owls, the Gulf War, Saddam Hussein.... They remind me of going to school and working on different projects. I actually did work on a senior year project in that very building. All of this brought back so many memories. Here are a few:
  • Trapper Keeper tours in 5th grade with Heather. We ended up getting our name on the board for that one.
  • My 5th grade bloody nose that wouldn't quit.
  • Creating a HUGE mess on the band room carpet in 9th grade. Dumping tons of various cleaning products on a pencil shaving mess is NOT a good idea!
  • Fullerton IV talent shows.
  • Rumors of Mr. Silverman showing up drunk to the school carnival.
  • Scoliosis testing. So mortifying to be topless in front of strangers.
  • Warm fuzzies/cold pricklies.
  • "Bathroom" breaks during Mr. Howe's class - i.e. visiting Sara in Mr. Marsh's class.
  • Mr. D. - seriously, wasn't he terrifying?? Although he was rad during archery, with his "chocolate morsels" that the rest of us would call Tootsie Rolls!
  • Mr. P - he was The Best!!
  • Getting kicked off the band bus in 9th grade. Mr. P didn't even get mad at me for it!
  • Our 10th grade marching band trip to Disneyland. -- Hey Sara --- "Tom's a babe!" - my throat hurts just thinking about how loud you made me scream that!
  • Band camp. *insert jokes here*
  • FBLA trips and playing on hotel balconies
  • 1995 State Football champs!
  • Keith Tooley. :-(
  • Painting a mural on the wall of the accounting room at RHS.
  • RHPS at Grad Night
  • Shark dissection with Mr. Pillette.
  • Grade school plays like Oliver and the Wackadoo Zoo.
  • That traumatizing "Miracle of Life" video -- okay, so I didn't watch it. It was too painful and bloody to look at!
  • Prom?? Oh wait. I never went.
  • Times tables and spelling lists.
  • Tuesday nights at the Skater's Derby.
  • And last, but certainly not least .... Sandy Rice School of Dance.
So the memories are fun. But I am soooo glad school is over!!

Only 26 To Go!

Sitting in a budget law training session, I couldn't help but look around to see what my "peers" look like. Without a doubt, I was by far the youngest in the room. I saw some familiar faces from the same training session a few years ago, but nothing too exciting.

Something sad caught my eye. In the front row I spotted two women. both with hair in various shades of white, one with some flecks of gray still showing. The skin on the woman I could see best was showing many signs of age. Loose, jiggling triceps, age spots, wrinkles ....

Why were they there? How old were they? the clothing, the jewelry, the faces, voices, laughs .... everything tells me they are grandmas and wives and should be retired. I felt bad for them having to be at training instead of home with coffee, Cream of Wheat and Regis Philbin. I don't want to be their age and still working because I have to. I'd rather just be working by choice. Maybe I would volunteer my time at the Wildlife Safari as a docent, or something fun like that.

My mom could have retired last year. She was only 48 years old. She still works now, by choice, but she's still young and doesn't yet need to be free to babysit my child. :-( I can't keep straight how long they tell me I HAVE to work before I can retire from my job. Let's just work with 30 years. I have been with PERS for over 4 years now. So I guess 26 more years to go. That puts me at 56 years old. I can work with 56. The two women I was looking at are close to 70. I just don't want, in 30 years, for some perky 30 year old girl to look at me and feel sad.

Friday, March 6, 2009

I am SO there!!

The Last House on the Left - yet another horror/suspense movie remake.... and I am soooo ready to go! It comes out on Friday the 13th. I missed the last Friday the 13th movie premiere because I was in Vegas -- that was for .... Friday the 13th! I'm not going to miss the Last House on the Left. I hope it can live up to the original movie, if not exceed it!

Another movie I would love to see remade ... Bloodbath at the House of Death. It came out in 1983. We watched it at one of my slumber parties when growing up. At first we thought it was terrifying, and quit watching. The next day we watched again - turns out the movie is hysterical!

I want to see it again! I've googled it - I can buy it on VHS for too much money than its worth. But if they could just make it again, that would be rad.

Anyway - Last House on the Left ... can't wait!!

Thursday, March 5, 2009

YOU are not a victim.

This was said to me this morning on the way to work:

The signs of an abuser:

They are mean and aggressive, until you call them on it. Then they present themselves as the victim.

Turning yourself into the victim is so unattractive. I've just watched this whole scenario play out. I am happy to know I am the one coming out with my head high. You're not a victim. You just don't like that I have called you out on your behavior! Its probably easier to pretend you are the innocent victim to garner more attention that way.

A trend is a trend. If the shoe fits on the above definition, well then, the shoe fits!

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

Virgin No More?

I am so sad. Its leaving... the Virgin Megastore in Orlando at Downtown Disney. It was my favorite store down there. You could hardly even call it a store. It was so much more. Books, cds, dvds, imports, toys, clothes, piano music, video games, calendars, magazines, coffee shop.... they have it all. You could be in there forever and not get bored.

When I lived in Orlando I was always at the Virgin Megastore - which is clearly seen when looking at my collection of imported cds - and my favorite Goonie's t-shirt that I picked up last year. On vacation a couple of years ago I found a great deal on my portable dvd player that also plays my iPod. I love that thing!

And now, in May 2009, it is closing. I am so bummed. I wanted to take Jessica there this year during our vacation. I know she would have been like a kid in a candy store. I guess now I'll just have to take her to the actual candy store a few doors down.

They better not take away my House of Blues. I would be crushed.
Maybe they'll put in something better?